Tuesday, August 12, 2008

not only am i eventually going to hell, i'm there right now

I'm feeling incredibly, terribly dysfunctional today
swinging between misery and stress and self-absorption

between the two of them i'm effectively fucked up for the next 2 years or so, i'd say
funny how i can put a timeline on that

and in the depths of my misery there's a little, evil voice in my head laughing at me. 'oh the drama! you like being miserable. it's your natural state. happiness will never sit well with you, not for long anyway. because once you've gotten over the novelty of it you go looking for reasons to tear it apart.'

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